Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Its been a while...

Its been quite a while since I posted anything on here or followed any of the blogs I normally read. I've been a little busy lately, but its been good, until yesterday. Yesterday, my old company, Wachovia (damn them...everytime I hear their name I feel a little anger) decided to go under and Citibank came in to try to save them. In a very short period of time, my stock plumeted to zero. I lost a shitload of money instantly (as in thousands-double digits). Thats a lot of freaking $$, I was completely pissed and let it ruin my whole day. Previously being a stock broker before making my way back into IT, I started thinking like one and found new light of my situation. I can write off my loss against my gains $3k per year until my losses are absorbed. Of course, I won't have any gains this year because of how crappy this market is. But then that got me thinking, why not take advantage of everything being on sale. I like sales - lord knows I look at every sale ad that comes to my house! Instead of making the worst out of an already bad situation, I'm going to start dumping money into the market to try to re-coup some of my losses. Granted, I won't make any money this year or even the next probably. But if I just bought shares for less than $10 when 6 months ago (when the economy still wasn't doing very well, therefore having a negative impact on the market) they were selling at over $25, I think I just got myself a pretty good deal. The market has proven over decades that it will eventually come back and the ones that stuck it out made tons of $$. I'll take a gamble...if I lose it all again, I'm just going to jump off my roof.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008


Last night, Tony & I went to the Cardinal's game with Val & Kevin. We had an absolute blast. Val got free tickets for spending way too much money on her cardinal's credit card and treated us to one of the best experiences I've had at the new stadium. We were in the Best Buy Luxury Suite. Plasma HD TV's everywhere, couches, even a TV in the refrigerator door! The food was phenomenal; ballpark franks, brats w/ sauerkraut, nachos with the works, kick-ass chicken strips, deli sandwiches, fruit tray, cheese tray, and the dessert tray - which I took a whole plate of the brownies home with me. It also included free beer and soda. What more could we ask for. Little did we know our box came equipped with PlayStation3 and a Wii. I have never played the Wii before and have always wanted to try it as I've heard adults have more fun with it than kids do. Val and I tried the boxing game. Jesus - that was the best workout I had in a long time; I was sweating, out of breath, and laughing so hard, not to mention the other people in the room, I couldn't breathe. It was hilarious. Val was crying she was laughing so hard. I beat her and the proceeded to play a 4 year old, who kicked my butt. Val videotaped it and we laughed about the video tape for the next 2 hours. I still laugh every time I watch it. Hilarious!! I've decided that I need to get one of these Wii games. Just for the exercise benefit alone. I'm going to go look at them this weekend. A free ticket to a game is going to end up costing me a couple hundred probably!! But maybe it will get me into somewhat of shape, which is more than my gym membership is doing right now.

Monday, September 22, 2008

First Day of Fall

Today, we entered into one of my favorite seasons, Fall. I love the fall weather; the much cooler temperatures, hoodie sweatshirts, the changing of the leaves. It also brings with it one of my favorite holidays, Halloween. I'm looking forward to the upcoming bonfires, trips to the haunted houses, pumpkin patch, possibly apple picking, but most of all, a boat ride down the Mississippi to take in the breathtaking view of the bluffs admiring the colors of the changing leaves. This has been something my family has done since they've been boat owners, although we haven't done it in the last 3 years. Hopefully, the river will go down so that we can make our usual fall trip.
This year, fall also brings with it graduate classes, the 1 year anniversary since my house was completed - therefore my first Halloween party in the new place, and one of my best buds nuptials. One of my closest friends Valerie, will be tying the knot with her high school sweetheart, Kevin. I couldn't be happier for the two of them and I'm looking forward to being a part of their special day in November. Along with that comes the showers, bachelorette party, rehersal dinner and anything else to help the bride. Not to mention I have another wedding 2 weekends before hers - another of my best friend's brother is taking the plunge. I'm also planning on hosting a poker tournament sometime this fall, before it gets cold so that people can get out of the stuffy basement and relax in the cool temperatures of the outdoors - possibly have a bonfire pit and roast some marshmellows and make smores. YUM! I've yet to decide on a date because I have something going on it seems like every weekend from October to mid November. Then Thanksgiving, and following that the countdown to Christmas. My calendar is screaming for an empty date...will I ever get a break from all the chaos? Chances are, not anytime in the remainder of this year.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

A Dreaded Decision

Today, my decision to return to school to obtain my masters was finalized. It was a dreaded decision. I really didn't want to go back to school again, but feel that I would majorly benefit from another degree. I'd rather just get it over with rather than do it later when I might possibly be juggling more such as being married with children. Tony is in his last year of his electrical apprenticeship, so I figured we could make the best of it and do homework together. I'm sure it will pay off in the end. I think the part that I dreaded most was adding another 20K in student loans to my already large student loan debt. I could have bought a BMW or Cadillac with the amount of money I spent on my schooling, but a car wouldn't last as long as an education would. Maybe once I get these loans paid off in 2027, I can get my car then...

It took me a while to determine what degree I was going back to obtain. My bachelors is a BS in Information Technology, so I was going to go for the Master of Information Systems, however, if I should ever make the move to go outside of IT as I did once already, I'm kind of screwed with my degrees. But since I'm an IT person, I thought I should keep my degree in the same field that I'm currently in and have been in for a few years now. But then I started looking into an MBA - Master of Business Administration - this degree I could take anywhere, but it doesn't necessarily pertain to my field, however its the life experience that counts. Then I found the perfect compromise. MBA with Technology Management Concentration. Its a mixture of both. Perfect!

So, I start my first class in the next couple of months. I have so much going on between October and November with weddings, that I didn't need to add anything else to my plate right now. My first class will be Management, imagine that. Exciting...I can't wait...to get this over with!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Lack of Sleep

So this morning started the schedule of once a month production installs for me at work. These installs start at 2 AM, so I have to be in the office about 1:30 AM. Due to my normal sleep schedule getting in the way, I was not able to adjust going to bed so early and therefore was unsuccessful at getting any sleep. Tony had hockey practice and was walking in the front door as I was waking up from my oh so short nap. I've come to realize I have bigger issues than lack of sleep. I do not function, (i.e can't follow my normal dressing routine, can't drive, and I definitely had problems getting out of my car once in the parking lot) this early in the morning unless there is alcohol involved. I know, sad, isn't it? Ironically, the team brought in some white castles for everyone and even those didn't even smell scrumptious without with gurgling acidic alcohol in my tummy. For next months install, I'm going to have to start my morning off right with some Bailey's and Coffee or Hot Chocolate. We'll just consider that a night cap, or should it be morning cap?

Sorry, today's blog is going to be cut short...unfortunately, my brain is not working well enough to effectively communicate my thoughts. Possibly more to come after some sleep this afternoon.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Cooking 101 - YUMM-O!

In my quest to become more domesticated, I've recently been watching more of the food network trying to teach myself how to cook. I'm proud of myself. Sunday evening, I made chicken spedini for dinner, but it was my own version. Basically, I took all my spedini recipes and combined the parts that I liked about all of them to make 1 totally awesome version...or at least I thought so. I was so impressed with this, that I decided to blog the recipe so that all can benefit from my creation. Bon Appetite!

1 pkg chicken breast filets
1 cup olive oil
1 cup white wine
1/2 cup parmasan cheese
1 Tbs minced garlic
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp pepper
1/3 tsp crushed red pepper
1/2 cup bread crumbs + bread crumbs to bread the chicken
Asiago cheese cut into 1 - 2 inch cubes depending on how much cheese you like
1 stick butter
1/2 cup lemon juice

I typically buy a package of chicken breast filets or tenders (pkg of 5) and slice them in half long ways - but I'm only making it for two people.

Marinate chicken, minimum of 1 hour in the following:

1 cup olive oil
1 cup white wine
1/2 cup parmasan cheese
1 Tbs minced garlic
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp pepper
1/3 tsp crushed red pepper
1/2 cup bread crumbs

After marinated, take tenders and wrap around cube of asiago cheese and secure with toothpick (from own personal experience - don't use colored toothpicks).

Roll chicken and cheese in breadcrumbs and place on greased cookie sheet.

Bake at 350 degrees for 20 - 30 minutes.

I served mine over noodles and added a lemon butter sauce...which I sometimes add garlic too.

1 stick butter
1/2 cup lemon juice
garlic powder to taste

Monday, September 15, 2008

Guilty Pleasures

I learned something about myself over the weekend. I've become lazy as I've aged. I recently switched my cable from Dish Satellite to AT&T's new U-Verse. Saturday, they came to install the new service so I had my satellite disconnected as of the same day. From the time I got out of bed Saturday (6:30 AM), I had no TV - not even local channels since there is not a TV in my house hooked up to the antenna. Since there was nothing to watch on TV, I was forced to clean the rest of my house that didn't get straightened by my mother on Friday. It was the only alternative to sitting in silence, bored out of my mind, waiting on the cable guy. Over the past week, I've been sick, so I haven't had a whole lot of energy - which was also the case on Saturday morning. After making myself breakfast, doing the dishes, and 1 load of laundry, I decided to get out the carpet cleaner and clean the carpet upstairs (Bella, my dog, had gotten sick and made a slight mess). I started where the stain was and after about 12 strokes of vacuuming with the carpet cleaner, I was done for. All I wanted to do was watch TV - and I had no TV to watch. I proceeded to go downstairs and write a blog about the new decor my mother had helped me with the night before, when my internet went out. Perfect - the AT&T man was coming anyway. After 5 hours of install and patient waiting, the cable guy informs me that due to the hurricane in TX, there is an outage to the STL area with no anticipated outage time. Great...now what? I was without cable until 7 PM last night. Tony and I were about to go insane...no TV, no internet. What were we to do? It would be to logical to pick up a book and read that, or to do something constructive. We have officially become couch potatoes. I don't typically watch a whole lot of TV anyway, but I watch a TON of movies. Unfortunately, all the movies we own, we have seen millions of times and we had just watched most of them recently. The more I thought about how TV dependent we were the more annoyed I got. I made a punch list of things that need to be done around the house, items that should be done weekly, and a punch list of things that I want to do in the near future. From now on, we are going to start doing one item a night/weekend before we resort to comfy clothes, comfort food, and a waste of an evening watching the "boob tube" as my father refers to it.

Which brings me to another issue. I've put on quite a bit of weight in the last couple of months/year. I went from 130 to 160 in less than a year. Why? Probably because I've been spending too many hours in front of that illuminated box in my living room eating bon bons and popcorn. And it doesn't help that I haven't been very active - I have no exercise in my agenda at all. I have a gym membership that I don't use and exert very little energy in a days work. My daily punch list should include EXERCISE in it, but unfortunately, I couldn't bring myself to add that entity. I hate exercise, I don't like feeling winded, and I hate sweating. However, I had to put an item on my punch list that gave me some activity in my sedentary lifestyle...so in denial that I needed this, I decided that Bella has put on some weight and needs some activity as well. My punch list item is to walk the dog at least every other day. Sorry Bella...

Home Interiors

This was my post from Saturday, however, I didn't get it posted before my Internet went off...it finally came back on last night...geeh...

I moved into my house last year in November. As some know, my I had my house built, so it came with no blinds, curtains, etc. For the last year, my walls have been blank with the exception of a few pictures that I bought here and there, but otherwise, empty and plain. As of last night, I finally have some decor that went up on the walls and the downstairs actually looks like someone lives here, compliments of my mother. She is an awesome interior decorator and does wonders when it comes to hanging things, matching colors and knowing what will look good and what will not. And the best part about it is, she LOVES doing it. I'm finally relieved. Of course, I would love to have some blinds (other than the paper ones I currently have) and curtains. Perhaps those will come by this time next year. I didn't realize the expense of owning, maintaining and decorating a house to make it livable. Its almost a full time job. Throw a husband and a couple of kids in the mix and I don't know how women do it and stay sane! I'm in utter amazement now that I'm a homeowner. Those of you with houses and families, you are my hero's! I've decided that I need to return to school so that I can make more money and hire a cleaning lady.

Seriously though, I am planning on returning to school to get my MBA with a concentration in technology. This is a huge step for me because I absolutely HATE school. I don't have the patience or urge to ever attend class. However, I've learned that get anywhere in life, it requires pain and suffering...and this to me is about as painful as it can get. Thank god its only 78 weeks...god...that sounds horrible.

Friday, September 12, 2008


Yesterday, I didn't post anything as I was home sick and couldn't really conjure up anything to to write about. Wednesday afternoon, I left work early because I wasn't feeling well, went to my mom's who proceeded to tell me I had pneumonia and took me to the emergency room. My neck was also twice its size from swollen lymph nodes and it really worried her. Those that know me would know that I hate going to the doctor and must feel like I'm about to take my last breath for me to go. I felt pretty bad, but not bad enough to go the the emergency room. However, because she is my mother and she worries, I thought I would ease her mind.

We got to Christian NW Emergency Center at 2 PM. I signed in and proceed to wait in the waiting room until 4:45 when they finally took me back for more waiting. Now, I was pretty sick, coughing every 5 minutes and spreading my sickness. Mom and I were discussing what if my grandmother, who has leukemia, were in the waiting area. She has no immune system and therefore if she was in the same area I was in, she would definitely end up with pneumonia and could possibly die. People who come in that are spreading germs should be quarrantined once they get there in my opinion. How bad would it suck to come into the hospital to get some stitches on a cut and end up back in the emergency room with pneumonia a week later because some broad in the waiting room was hacking up a lung and her germs spread to you while you were waiting for your stitches?? In no way was this hospital in any hurry to see patients. What is the point of going to the emergency room if they don't treat your illness as an emergency? Granted, my sickness was not an emergency, but seriously, there were 5 people in the waiting room when I arrived and it took them 3 hours to treat 5 people? I finally left at 6:25 PM with 2 prescriptions and a diagnosis of severe acute bronchitis.

I am going with my girlfriends to the Journey, CheapTrick, Heart concert at Riverport this weekend. It is supposed to storm (damn you Hurricane Ike!!). Tony told me that if I go, I am definitely going to have pneumonia by Sunday for sure!! I don't feel all that bad anymore, just a horrible cough, that hopefully the Z-Pack they prescribed me will cure. I really don't want to miss this concert, but then again, I really don't want to be hospitalized. Decisions, decisions...

On another note...one of my favorite holidays is quickly approaching. This is my first Halloween in my new house so we are going to celebrate by handing out candy to all the kiddos in the neighborhood, decorating the garage to be a haunted garage complete with icky things for the kids to stick their hands in (i.e. eyeballs, brains, etc). Anyone is welcome. Bring your kids and take them trick-or-treating around the neighborhood (there's a lot of houses) or bring some candy and sit in the "haunted garage" and hand it out to all the kids. I know some people like my parents and my brother & sis in law live where they don't get any trick-or-treaters so this its a treat for them to hand out candy...besides if we have a handfull of people all handing out candy at one house, we will be the favorite of the neighborhood. Feel free to dress up...I think my brother is...I might if I can come up with something. I can't wait!!! Oh, and I will be making a large pot of Chili and another pot of chili with no beans- and have sides of all the fixins and some appetizers and ghoulish desserts. No one has to bring anything but your choice of beverage, but if you would like to, you are more than welcome!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Election Issues

Recently, I've been reading up and watching a lot of TV regarding the election issues. This is the first election that I've actually followed because I'm finally at an age were these issues can effect me. I was raised republican by my parents, but now that I'm an adult I believe that I have the right to vote for whatever party I feel will benefit me and the economy better. I feel the same about religion. Just because you were raised a certain belief, doesn't mean that you can't convert to another as an adult. Parents are intended to raise you as they see fit and bring you up the way they feel that you should be raised. My parents did a great job at this, but I'm on my own now and have a right to my own beliefs, opinions, and ideas.

That being said...as I stated in my first blog, this is my own opinion and the way I feel. I know that politics and religion are touchy subjects to talk about, but this is my blog and I would like to express my feelings, opinions, and discuss my thoughts on certain issues. That does not mean I want to battle someone of which candidate is better, however, if you would like to comment on the issues or reasons you feel differently than I do, that is acceptable. I will never look differently upon someone for having a different outlook, opinion, or idea other than what I have. That is what makes us all different. We would all live in a pretty boring world if we all thought the same, looked the same, and did the same things. So, feel free to comment...

Issue #1 - Health Care - McCain
I'm going to have to back John McCain on this one. I do not necessarily agree with Obama's proposal of a national health insurance program for individuals who do not have employer-provided health plans. I come from a family of small business owners and this plan would require employers who do not provide health insurance to pay into a national health insurance program. My question is, what if the employee only works part-time - are they still entitled to insurance benefits? I do support McCain's proposal for health care tax dividends for low-income Americans, medical malpractice reform and encouraging small businesses to get together to negotiate lower rates with health care providers.

Issue #2 - Iraq - McCain
Obama wants to remove 1 combat brigade each month with a complete withdrawal of combat brigades within 16 months. While I would love nothing more than to bring our troops home I feel that everything that we have been over there doing the last few years would be for nothing. The Iraqi government would take control and mass chaos would break out all over again. I do not ever want to see another attack like 9/11 in my lifetime. I support and appreciate all the soldiers that are over there, have been over there, and lost their lives fighting for this country. McCain wants to deal with the Iraqi insurgency by securing the population and work on establishing a stable government. I'm all about fixing the problem first, then removing the troops after.

Issue #3 - Economy - Obama
Obama wants to put $75 billion back into the economy with tax cuts and direct spending - strictly for working families, seniors, homeowners, and the unemployed. It would also include another $45 billion if the economy would continue to worsen. McCain wants to lower the corporate tax rate and give a research and development tax credit. I understand that companies are suffering and laying off people because of their losses, however, its because people are not spending money - or generating revenue for corporations. I agree that money should be dumped into the economy, but I don't know if providing it to corporations is the right way to go. I believe that it should go into peoples pockets.

Issue #4 - Immigration - null
Both candidates have the same views on this issue

Issue #5 - Foreign Policy - Obama
Obama wants to reconcile with the government, end the war, and bring our troops home. I agree with this, but not with bringing home 1 combat brigade a month. I think that everything McCain strategy in Iraq needs to be put in place first, then this. He is also willing to meet with nation leaders - friend and foes. He wants to achieve peace between Israel and Palestine, he wants to strengthen the Nuclear Non-Proliferation Treaty so that country's that break this will face international sanctions. And finally, he wants to stop the killings in Darfur. I support all of these. McCain wants to develop a national missile defense to secure our homeland from missile attack and blackmail by rogue regimes. He wants to increase the size of our armed forces (which I understand as "draft"). And finally, he says that military action is an option in Iran, but would consult with congressional leaders before taking action. I support Obama more in this issue...

Issue #6 - Energy and the Environment
I need to do some more research on this issue. Right now I'm torn between the two, but don't know a lot about the subject.

Issue #7 - Abortion/Gay Marriage/Stem Cell Research - McCain
I'm pr0-life, with restrictions. I do not believe that someone who is raped should be forced to have the child. I do not believe that someone who could possibly die during childbirth or while carrying should be forced to have the child. It should be their decision. I need to do more research on this topic as well to find out if there will be restrictions if roe vs wade is overturned. As for gay marriage - whatever floats your boat...leave it up to the state to determine if they will allow it or not. I agree with stem cell research on embryos that would be discarded. Guess for now, until I get all my details, I'll have to go with McCain for this one.

So as of right now, McCain is in the lead based on the issues and my thoughts listed above...however, I still have one undecided issue that Obama could get my vote for, which would tie the two. So, how do I vote if they tie? I guess I'll have to weight out my issues in order of importance and the top 3 issues win. More to come...

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Down with the Sickness...

For all the hard work and long hours I've been pulling lately trying to survive, my body has decided to reward me with a sickness. At first I thought it was allergies because my eyes were watery, my throat itchy, but now I think I may have a sinus infection. Not only to have have the previous 2 symptoms listed, but also a horrible cough, fever, stuffy head, congested lungs, and pressure in my ears. As I sit here typing, I'm trying to chew gum to get rid of this horrible snot breath I have and breathe through my mouth at the same time. Typically, I'm able to multi-task but apparently not right now. I've bitten my tongue about 5 times so far, yet I continue to chew. Apparently the cold meds have gotten to my brain and have caused it to not function properly. For example: this morning on my way to work I completely missed my exit, then turned on my left turn signal to make a right turn and sat at a stop sign in a daze until the vehicle behind me started honking, which scared me, so I hit the gas and almost hit a car coming from the left.

The reason I bring this up is because the medicine I took stated on the box that it was the non-drowsy formula. So maybe it didn't put me into a coma, but it altered my judgement and ability to think coherently. I could have killed myself all because I was driving to work, with a common cold, which I told cold medication for.

Here's my other peeve: Last night I realized I only had enough cold medicine to take then or skip that dose and wait until morning. I wanted to stop and get some more late yesterday evening so that I could take a dose before bed to help me rest and then again to get me through work today. But then I was reminded that the pharmacy was closed and unless I drove all the way to a 24 hour pharmacy, I would not be able to get any because of the meth makers. That really irritates me. I'm sick, I can't get medicine unless I drive to a 24 hours pharmacy because someone decided to use my cold medicine to produce crystal meth to make their teeth fall out. At that point, I wanted to track down a meth head and kick his teeth in for him, save him the habit and ask him for my medicine which he was going to use to concoct drugs. Living in St. Charles, I'm sure there were some that live closer to me than the 24 hour pharmacy.

Monday, September 8, 2008


I'm having some difficulties dealing with Ameren, the only electrical supplier available to power up my home with electricity. Back in May, I received my bill and I noticed that it had *FINAL BILL* in the corner of it. It was delievered in an envelope enclosed with a flyer notifying that this would be the last bill at the fall/spring rate. The next one would be billed at the higher, summer rate. So I assumed that was what the final bill indicator meant. I assumed wrong. I called in early July to notify them that I had not received a bill since May. They told me that my balance was $30 something dollars (which I thought seemed awfully cheap) however, I paid it. Then last week I called again to notify Ameren that I, once again had not received a bill. I gave them the billing address and they told me that the bill had been paid, on time, since May. I found that odd, so I asked, "Who paid it, I didn't." Then....are you ready for this...the lady on the phone says, well ma'm, the bank has. This address was repossessed by the bank. WHAT?!?!?!? I told the lady that was impossible, there is no possible way that the bank could have repossessed my home because I didn't even hold a mortgage on the property. So she put me on hold for what felt like a few hours and told me she was checking into it. When she came back on the line she said that the bill was asked to be taken of my name effective in May (when I received the *FINAL BILL* notice). I had received no phone call, email, post mail, anything notifiying me of this. So I calmly asked the woman to swich the bill back into my name as this was a mistake. She then tells me she cannot do this without first getting permission from the current bill-payer, the bank. I was furious. How could you take it out of my name when I was the current, bill-payer without my permission?? So she tells me that it is out of her hands and she is going to have to refer my "case" to the resolution department. They would call me with an update in at least 48 hours.

So, 48 hours later...no phone call. I call again, no status. Then on Saturday, I recieve a bill from Ameren in the mail for over $300, due on September 15. Again, my blood pressure raised. Why should I be responsible to pay this bill, they were the ones that screwed up, not me. The bank was the one that requested service at my address to be moved to them, let them eat it for the headache they caused me.

Now, I'm going to dispute this, but its not like I can refuse to pay it. If I do, they will shut off my electric and there is not another electric company that can supply me with power. I don't think it is fair that Amerun can monopolize the electric industry when it comes to power supply. My only alternative would be to install solar power, which typically isn't enough to run my furnace or use the wind, which those of you who have been to my house know that the wind will blow you over. However, that would require an investment probably close to the purchase price of my house.

SO, bottom line is that I will proabably have to pay this stinkin bill...but I'm not going out without a fight!

Friday, September 5, 2008

A New Start...

This is my first blog...I found an interest in reading a friend of mines, so I decided to start one of my own to share in the chaos, comotion, and emotion that occurs in my day to day activities. I don't know that I'll use it as a daily journal, but it will give me something to do in my downtime and a place to vent my frustrations.

I've had a rough past couple of months. My builder went out of business without paying any of the contractors who actually built my house, which in turn are suing me for the money they are owed. I definitely found out that I am in the wrong occupation in the process of going through these lawsuits. My lawyer gets to charge for paperclips...who charges for paperclips???Is it more for a larger paperclip rather than a smaller one? What is this world coming too?!?

Aside from that, up until this past Tuesday, I've been unemployed. I started a new job on at a company called Financial Network Inc. So far so good...seems like a good place to put down some roots. I have also been working part time at a restaurant by my house trying to make some extra money, well actually to make ends meet while I was unemployed. Today is the first Friday night I've had off in a long time and I'm excited for some much needed playtime. The plan is to go out to Val & Kevin's and play some poker for $$, hopefully I win, which will just be the icing on the cake and a way to end one of the most normal weeks I've had in months.

The last few months, I've been in somewhat of a state of depression not knowing whats going to happen with my house, my job, my relationship with Tony due to my excessive drinking as he calls it. Honestly, I don't drink that much, but I was drinking during the week because that became my weekend when I was working every weekend. I'm looking forward to a fresh start, with a new job, and new attitude.

So this concludes my first blog...I need to save some stuff to post later on down the road.