Addiction

Last night I finished New Moon - almost 600 page book in less than 24 hours. I'll have to admit that I wasn't liking it quite as much as the first one until the end. The middle of the book was not my favorite at all. But by the time I got to the last 4-5 chapters or so, I was hooked once again. Now on to the next book, Eclipse which I already read the first chapter out of the back of New Moon...unfortunately, the book set I ordered is not here yet and won't be till Friday or Saturday because of the holiday. Which is probably a good thing...I need to get some things done around the house tomorrow on my day off and if that book were here, I'd probably have my nose in it all day and get nothing done. I need to get the xmas decor and the tree down and put my house back to normal. Whoo hoo...I can't wait {that was serious sarcasm}.

Tonight we are going over to the Sheeley's for NYE party. Heathers parents always have such fun parties. Plus, on our budget, we needed to do something cheap this year. I'm sure I'll have some pics to post, although I always say that and never post them because I typically write my blogs at work and don't have any pics here. Maybe on Thursday, I'll find some time in my day to post some. I also have some funny ones to post from this years Christmas Eve Eve party of drunk Heather, that I promised her I wouldn't post on Myspace...but I didn't say anything about my blog...hehe

New Moon (Twilight Saga Part 2)

Last night, I got home, made the flank steak I marinated overnight with some potatoes and corn and debated on what to do with the rest of my evening. I really had enjoyed the last couple of days, well, Saturday anyway; curling up on the couch with Bella and my Twilight book. I had started reading Midnight Sun on the Internet, Stephanie Meyers rough draft of the Twilight book, only from Edward Cullen's point of view, but I really wanted to continue with the saga. The Internet reading was good for killing time in my downtime during the day. So, last night after I found out Crystal wasn't finished with the 2nd book, Tony and I trucked up to Books-A-Million to buy the rest of the series. Unfortunately, they didn't have all of them. They did, however have New Moon, the sequel to Twilight in paperback, which I purchased. I proceeded to go home and order the 4 books set from Barnes&Noble.com as well as the soundtrack - there is a piano ballad called Bella's Lullaby which I really like, not to mention Linkin Park, Paramore, etc. I listened to it last night, and it literally put Bella, my dog to sleep. As Tony watched the Mizzou game, I got comfy in the chase and started to read. Before I knew it, it was 12:00, Tony was in bed, and I was a good 200 pages into the book. I didn't want to put it down, but knowing that I had to work today, I figured it was a good thing to do. I'm hooked...I never thought I would be. Tony and I had a conversation on the way home from the book store about how he didn't know I could even read...he had never witnessed it. I corrected him - of course I could read, in fact, I used to read a lot when I lived with my parents. I just hadn't found a book that I was really interested in until now.

At the book store, I looked everywhere to find the books - except for Teen Fiction. I cannot believe that these are books for teenagers. Well, yes, I can, but I can't believe I'm interested in a teen novel. I know its not only me; many of my friends, who are my age, are infatuated with it, and at the movie theatre, I think there were more "adults" there than teens. Could they possibly have made a mistake in what category to classify this?

Regardless, I can't wait to get to lunch, so I can pick it back up again and have visions of sexy ol' Edward Cullen. Who cares if he's only 17...you know how many women would want an experienced 80 something year old man in a 17 year old body full of vigor and energy...whoo! Technically, he's older than me...and as most of you that know me, I've always liked the older ones...

The Twilight Saga

Its been quite a while since I blogged, but I've been oh so busy with the holidays, and not much to blog about other than Christmas shopping, cookie baking and things not too exciting. I spent a nice Christmas with my family, in fact, Tony, Bella & I stayed at my parents house Wednesday thru Friday. We got lots of amazing Xmas presents, 2 of which Tony hasn't left alone; his shop-vac my parents got him and the new power washer Aunt Joan got us. Oh, and he was ecstatic about his new dart case (in GREEN!!!) from my brother and his new St. Louis Blues 3rd jersey (its the new one with the strings at the top and the arch on the front), that was from me. I got many nice things as well, a printer, a full length mirror, $$, pots and pans, pedi-paws (I'm excited to try this, if Bella will let me), wedding pics from my bro and Al, clothes, and best of all, a gift certificate to the movies to see Twilight, which Tony and I saw Saturday night.

At church on Thursday, Crystal gave me the first book in the series to read, which I picked up on Saturday, finished it, and went to see the movie that evening. In my opinion, the book is much better than the movie, although I'm glad I saw the movie because I waited to read chap 1 of the next book, until after. Now I have pictures in my mind of the characters, the setting, etc. I'm addicted. I read that Chapter last night, and I'm going today on my lunch break to by the second edition. For something that I thought was a kids book, I couldn't put it down. I've been told that they have the new rough draft of Stephanie's next book, I think its called Midnight Eclipse, which is actually the first book, Twilight, only from Edward Cullen's point of view. I plan on reading that off the website, then when the book comes out, I'll read it again.

I haven't been this involved in reading in a long time. I'm a very picky reader...If I'm not hooked by the 2nd chapter, I'll never finish. However, if I am hooked, then I won't put it down. It was a relaxing Saturday. I haven't had a day like that in what seems like forever!

Reality Check

Its been quite some time since I've posted a blog. When I first started this, it was an everyday ritual. I've become quite the slacker in my postings. Its still a ritual for me during the week, to visit the site, read all my girlfriends blog pages, and then to sit and stare at mine trying to come up with something interesting, something that others may care about, and preferably, something upbeat. However, what I've learned about blogging is, it doesn't necessarily have to be positive and full of sunshine. In the beginning, I said I was going to write about whatever was on my mind; positive or negative, happy or sad, opinionated or not...this was my blog. I'm going to try to get back on track with things and start posting again everyday, or hopefully at least once a week.

Today's blog is about reality. I've been living my life in a huge bubble that has recently started to leak and I've been introduced into the world that I refused to live in...hence the fact I took refuge inside this bubble. I don't know what I thought my life was going to be like; all fun and games, partying everyday, no cares about anyone or anything, living by the seat of my pants and day by day with no light at the end of the tunnel or a plan for the future in sight. I just got a rude awakening. I've always been very independent; earned everything I have, and never relied on anyone (other than my parents in a time of need) for help. I'm proud of that, of my independence. Then Saturday, I had a conversation with someone who was talking about marriage most of the day. She wanted to know why guys are so scared to get married because her step-son is petrified, even though he knows that his current girlfriend is his soulmate. As the conversation continued, the more she said, the more I realized that guys are not the only ones...I've always said that I didn't need anyone and would never marry. Over 1/2 my friends are divorced, in the process of divorcing, or contemplating it. I think its been a fear of failure. A fear of losing my Independence. We continued our conversation, although through most of it I sat quietly and listened to how much she loves her husband, and while he's not her first husband, that's why hes her second. He makes her laugh everyday, and to her that is important in a relationship. It got me thinking about a lot of things; I've been selfish, not because I don't want to "lose" the above listed, but I've been selfish to myself for not wanting to be truly happy with someone. As well as selfish to them for not letting them in. Then she said something to totally knock me off my stool. She told me, "I'm one of the strongest, young females that she knows. I can take care of myself, and don't rely on a man to do the job for me. I know how to appreciate everything I have, because I worked hard for it and it wasn't given to me. I value respect, and don't put up with disrespect because I'm worried about someone taking something away from me. Now I just need to learn how to share. Share my possessions, share my thoughts/feelings, and share my life with someone else. Being strong is a good thing, it will keep your relationships strong when you finally meet someone that you are willing to "share" with."
It made me realize, my youth is getting dimmer, I can't party like I used to, don't really want to either. I'd rather spend a Saturday night on the couch with a good movie, just not every Saturday night, lol. I've decided to start something new, a new perspective and a plan for my future. I know all this won't fall into place overnight, but at least it is something to work towards.

On another note, I'd like to ask why if I'm such a strong person, why I do not have the strength to do laundry. I absolutely hate laundry, wish I was rich and could just buy new clothes rather than wash the dirty ones. I have piles everywhere, all sorted, just can't bring myself to throw them in. Actually, that's not the part that bothers me. Its the folding that I hate...