Thursday, November 13, 2008

My Blog Title Says Its All...

My blog title, Chaos, Comotion, and Emotion says it all. I couldn't think of a better way to describe the past couple of days and the weekend to come. My best gal Val, is getting married on Saturday and has chosen me as her maid of honor. It also just so happens that this week has been somewhat chaotic with other activities and things that must be done. Tonight is the rehearsal dinner, which is where the emotion comes in to play. I'm not typically an emotional person, but here lately, I don't know whats gotten in to me. 2 Sunday's ago, Tony and I were at Ameristar eating breakfast, and I just broke down crying in my eggs for no reason. All because Val was getting married in 2 weeks. I don't know where all this emotion is coming from. I'm so happy for her and Kev, but in a way I feel like I'm being deserted. Left to fend for myself in a barren land full of wild beasts and carnivores. I'm getting teared up as I write this blog. Val is like a sister to me and she's moving on to start her life with someone else. Soon she will be having children and I'll be an Aunt, but what about all the wild and crazy nights, the margaritas, poker, etc. What about the plan that we had for Garrett to put us in the same nursing home in Florida when we are old and crazy? Am I being selfish because I don't want to share my best friend with someone else? I'm sure if the tables were turned, it would be different so why do I feel this way? I need to grow up. I'm living my life as if I were in my early 20's and I'm very quickly approaching 30!! This is a normal course of life for normal people...guess I'm just not normal.

Anyway, I'm sure I'll post some pictures of the wedding sometime next week.

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